Sage opened his eyes when he felt the girl shift, and he frowned slightly when she handed Silas right back to him. The baby looked absolutely bewildered, and after a moment his face crinkled up in the way it did before he started to cry, so Sage quickly scooped him up, trying desperately to keep him quiet. He let out a few whimpers, looking back in Mari's direction. It was obvious the baby wanted his mother...but it didn't seem like he'd be getting her. So, Sage did his best to comfort the baby, handing him a bottle and wrapping him up in his arms. Silas wasn't too interested in the bottle, though...he sort of just whacked it away from his mouth with a whine of complaint. Sage sighed and set the bottle back down on the side table, laying so Silas could at least see his mother and lay in between them, even if she was refusing to hold him. Sage couldn't help but feel like Mari was slowly growing away from him and Silas...and while his heart told him that wasn't the case, his brain was spinning in circles, trying to figure out what they'd done wrong. He just seemed to upset Mari, no matter what he did. Did she really want a life with him? He wanted her to be happy, and if she wasn't going to be happy with him, then he'd let her go, no matter how much it hurt. He desperately hoped that wouldn't happen, but subconsciously he was already preparing for her to leave him.

Mari sighed softly and rested her head on the pillow again... her heart seemed to ache when the child started to cry, and it very nearly tipped off her own tears... she'd been close to crying for... a couple of hours now, so now they'd actually started to creep down her face as she got herself to sleep... it was in the early hours of the morning, but a few hours of sleep was enough for her. At least a few hours. Her side ached, but once she was peaceful. There was so much going through her head, so when she was finally knocked out, the peace was... wonderful. She hated that she'd made her baby cry... that she wasn't able to do anything to comfort him at all. She really was useless, wasn't she? Why couldn't she just turn around to her family and hold onto them just a bit tighter?

Sage didn't really sleep much through the night...he was really just worrying about a gazillion different things all at the same time. He was also holding Silas, not willing to let the baby go. He felt bad for the little one...and a bit for himself too. He still blamed himself for everything that had happened, and now everything that was happening as well. It certainly wasn't a good state of mind. And he did wish he could get out of it...but sitting there with nothing to do, not wanting to leave either Silas or Mari...it all left him in his head, and he couldn't seem to get out of it.

Mari slept late the next morning, forcing herself to sit up against the pillows. She looked down at Silas and Sage... the two of them were her entire world, so why was she struggling to care for them? All she wanted to do was look after Sage, and of course, sit with Silas for hours on end, so why couldn't she feel like that now? It was just... nothing. Maybe it was just because she was feeling sorry for herself, and feeling anything for anyone else was tricky, but... that didn't seem like the case at all. She just felt... sad. Little Silas had been crying last night because she'd rejected him. To hold her own baby. God, she was horrible... why did Sage want to marry her? Was it because of the baby? She wanted to be with him, but the fact that he might just want to marry her because of the child was... well, awful.

Sage had eventually drifted off sometime after the sun had started to rise and shine into the ward. He'd been up all night, just stuck in his own head. But, his body had eventually just stopped functioning, and he'd fallen asleep. He hadn't even noticed Mari move and shift around as she sat up, which sort of just proved how weary he was. He still had his arms wrapped tightly around little Silas, not wanting to let the baby go. It almost seemed like the baby was all he had here....even though Mari was in bed right next to him. It was an odd feeling, and definitely unwelcome.

Mari sat for a while before going to get a book from the side. She just read... all she could do was read. She wasn't fit to do anything else... like at all. She eventually looked down at the two of them, so similar in every way... there was barely any of her in Silas. He had her nose and her smile, but nothing else really. She sighed and gently went to poke Sage. "You need to go and get breakfast," she told him with a bit of a sigh. "Then see to the horses," she told him quietly, then went back to her book.

Sage stirred slightly and looked up at Mari blearily. He nodded slowly, not really wanting to get up but it just didn't seem like Mari wanted him there. So, he slid out of bed after a moment, placing Silas gently in his crib, and moving it to a spot where Mari could easily give him a bottle. Surely she'd at least feed her own child, right? He rubbed his eyes and let out a weary sigh before padding to the curtain. He looked back at Mari, murmuring, "if I don't make you happy, tell me before this goes any farther," to the girl before leaving. His voice was flat, and no matter how hard he tried to get back to his normal self, he just couldn't. Even the horses didn't seem to lift his spirits at all.

Mari kept on looking at her book for a while as Sage scampered about, though at his comment she felt her heart drop, her gaze darting back up towards Sage as he left. "I- No- Sage... wait," she babbled quickly, jerking forwards to him and trying to scramble out of bed and towards the door, though by the time she'd managed to get there, he'd already turned down the corridor. She couldn't see him. She didn't want to make him feel like that... like he didn't make her happy. He did, she just wasn't very good at being so helpless. Why would he even say that? Or suggest such a thing without giving her a chance to say anything to him? She was pulled out of her thoughts when she pretty much dropped to the ground, the pain that getting out of bed caused her pretty much running straight through her. Oh god, it hurt. She had to get back to bed, by pretty much crawling over there. She took a few moments to breathe, and then the baby at her side started to whine. She felt herself choke up too, from the multitude of things that were going on, but scooped him up anyway... there were bottles at her side, but when she offered some to him, he just kept on crying. She furrowed her brows, wrapping her arms around him and gently bouncing him up and down. He soon quietened down, and she just held onto him for a while, gently cradling him in her arms... she loved the child so, so much... it was just... hard to care for him when she couldn't even care for herself as of then.

Sage did what he had to down at the barn...feeding and watering and grooming, though for once, his heart just wasn't in it. His heart didn't really seem to be in anything, and he didn't even bring Mystery out to work on getting a saddle on the filly. He knew she needed to be taken out and worked with, but he just didn't have the energy to do anything besides wander over to Chaos's paddock and slide down to sit under the tree and stare at the ground. Chaos came over right away, and nudged him, and when he barely responded the horse let out a worried huff of air, pacing around him for a bit before laying down next to him. Sage just sort of fell over to lay on top of the horse's barrel..it made for a surprisingly cozy pillow, though he didn't really care. It was just nice to be able to trust that the horse would stay there with him. He stayed like that for quite a while, before deciding he should probably head back. He almost dreaded it...what if he walked into the baby screaming about mari having not cared for him? What if Mari had though about his earlier comment and he'd be chased out as soon as he got there? What if she'd hurt herself again, trying to do something? The possibilities were endless, and he paused outside, stomach churning. If he'd eaten anything, he would have definitely thrown it all back up...but he hadn't eaten anything in a few days now, so his stomach was empty. Maybe that was a good thing.

Mari sat with the child once he'd calmed down, a small smile on her face as she leaned back, the baby resting on her chest peacefully. She was so incredibly worried about what Sage had said... he made her happy. It may not seem like it right now, but it was hard to be happy when she was in so much pain... she loved baby Silas, too... but she'd been antsy and stressed and she didn't want the child to see her like that, even if he was just a child and didn't know what was going on. She was dreading Sage coming back... her heart was thumping violently, and she was terrified about what he was thinking. Did she not make him happy? Was that part of the issue? She hated to think it might be.