I'm not sure anyone can relate to this or even understands, but I am going to be starting therapy for my autism. I was diagnosed 3 years ago at the age of 21.

While doing the intake assessment with the therapist we discussed my history and it is painfully obvious that all my struggles have been related to my autism. It was never my anxiety, or depression, or disposition. I have a lot of trauma and looking back, so much of it could have been avoided had I been diagnosed sooner. I am also frustrated that I never realized there is therapy specific to managing my autism until now.

What really is heartbreaking though is I might have to drop out of the program I just got admitted to. I have overcome numerous setbacks and spent years just trying to get admitted. I recieved the clinical schedule and due to my autism it is structured in such a way that I am bound to fail.

I am waiting to hear about accomodations and I am hopeful the therapy I am starting will help me, but it is all just poor timing as the program starts Aug 26 and I don't think I will be ready in time.