On Tuesday my pony from when I was little passed away. He had an aspirated phemonia and was at the vet for 2 weeks but my trainer had to put him down. I don't know what to do since I haven't been at my barn since he passed and don't know what to do. I go from being super sad he passed away to not beleiving it happened and feeling oddly normal to feeling guilty for feeling normal. Sorry if that doesn't make sence. Does anyone have suggestions on what to do, I'd love to hear them?