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	To start, this year has been rough. For a lot of people, so I've mostly kept shut, there's been a lot of loss and that part of life. But I can't keep it all bottled up the way it is. Some of this actually happened very late 2022 and I will have it in order. -  Early December of 2022 I lost my heart horse when he was only 9. My boy came from a slaughter pen and took lots of time to get where he was, and he was the true reason I stuck with horses, as I started falling out of the industry. He was an abassador for a resucue I volunteer at. He colicked, then had a very severe EPM attack following, and he was too weak to continue fighting. The 5 years I had him and he changed the every way I look at life.  This is my boy. He was named Shipwreck, my bestest boy.    -  The same month, on December 21st, I lost my cat of 14 years, Oliver, he lost his battle against Sarcoma, cancer. He fought it since July, and it was a constant struggle, with it going away and coming back, but no surgery could remove it as it was attached to his ribs. I love that cat with all my life.   -   I then lost my cat Zoe in July at the ripe old age of 20, she was an absolutely amazing cat, and I actually do not remember life before I got her. She was the bestest girl till the end. She got dementia and had a hard time finding food or water. She was  always a super friendly snot    (Zoe is the Calico, that photo recent, you can see how frail she was)   -  Then today, I found out one of my close friends that moved away has been dead for 9 months due to suicide. I knew him since middle school. His parents did not like me at all so I think that's why I wasn't told. They knew how good of friends we were, but they disregarded it all. When I got in touch and asked why I was never told, they said they didn't think it was important enough. They weren't nice people, they didn't even treat their children well.   -  Its just been rough losing so many important animals and people in my life at once  
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	Oh my goodness, that is a lot of loss to process and go through. I don't know what to say excpet that I am sorry. As someone who has lost a beloved pet I can honestly say that time does help heal the heartbreak. It probably isn't what you want to hear right now, but I hope you can give yourself the time to mourn the loss of those you love.      I have found that talking about it can help too. If you ever need to vent please please feel free to PM me.     After such a hard year and so much loss I would encourage you to find things to look forward to. Maybe going to a movie, going out of town for the weekend, or buying yourself something. These little things will help you bear the heavy weight of grief.   
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	    Painted Pony Farms said:  Oh my goodness, that is a lot of loss to process and go through. I don't know what to say excpet that I am sorry. As someone who has lost a beloved pet I can honestly say that time does help heal the heartbreak. It probably isn't what you want to hear right now, but I hope you can give yourself the time to mourn the loss of those you love.     I have found that talking about it can help too. If you ever need to vent please please feel free to PM me.     After such a hard year and so much loss I would encourage you to find things to look forward to. Maybe going to a movie, going out of town for the weekend, or buying yourself something. These little things will help you bear the heavy weight of grief.  
 
   Thank you so much, I really do appreciate it so much ❤️  
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	Managed to squeeze it out of his parents that he is buried, now I need to figure out where. Seems now that his parents know their cover is blown they are a bit more cooperative   
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	That's good to hear but also extremly sad. I'm so sorry to hear this. Hope you are doing ok.      Bluebonnet Estates said:  Managed to squeeze it out of his parents that he is buried, now I need to figure out where. Seems now that his parents know their cover is blown they are a bit more cooperative  
 
      
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	Absolute worst thing possible happened. My mare, my only OTTB mare, the dam of my amazing up and coming gelding, and the dam of my high potential yearling, the mare I planned to breed to an amazing stud next year, and possibly my favorite broodmare, had a ruptured ulcer. Very slim chance of her surviving, heavily debated the surgery, but it was very expensive with such a slim chance of survival. Ultra seemed too far in, we made the unbearable decision to put my girl down. I love her with all my heart. I will miss every inch of the personality she held. All the sass, spunk, clumsiness, and just her overall personality. One of my more expressive horses I've owned. I will Love her forever and always. With all my heart </3  Edited at October 5, 2023 09:52 PM by Bluebonnet Estates 
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	That is by far the saddest thing I have read all week, you never truly move on from a horse loved like that. Just know you did the right thing. it can be hard to accept that oftentimes, but keep moving forward with her in your heart<3  
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	Deepest condolences. I'm so sorry to hear about all the loss you've had in your life. The hardest, but also one of the most graceful, things about being a human amongst animal friends is that we can help them move on peacefully. I hope you're coping okay; my inbox is always open if you need an ear.  
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	When I thought this year could not possibly get worse 😣  One of my closest friends (been friends since Freshman Year of HS, we were both on swim team and were actually on a relay team together) was just diagnosed with Rhabdo. As of now, there is a 50/50 shot she pulls through. She's currently hospitalized, she's not doing better nor worse so we will see.  it's rough especially because as of the 13th of this month, it's been 1 full year since one of my other extremely close friends died of suicide     Edited at October 21, 2023 01:32 PM by Bluebonnet Estates 
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	Holy fuck this month sucks. I have a friend hospitalized for Rhabdo, a friend hospitalized for a deadly skin disease, another friend hospitalized with a shattered foot after an accident, and a really good family friend just recently passed. All this month. Not to mention the animal deaths too. I lost my Ultra girl, and a extremely close friend just lost her Service dog.  
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